Swimming in the dark

The next time somebody looks me in the eye and seriously tells me that being a native speaker of a language is an automatic advantage and sign of superiority in language skill, I'm going to beat them over the head with this book.

My knowledge of Poland's history pre-war and post-war is incredibly limited and I haven't read much fiction that takes place during this time period in Soviet controlled territories. But a Polish friend of mine recommended this book, so I ended up picking it up to read.

The story jumps back and forth in time periodically, but mostly takes place in the months following the graduation of the main character. He's gay and is beginning to accept his sexuality while also trying to come to terms with the limits and possibilities of the place that he calls home. The story is hopeful yet claustrophobic, and because it's told in first person with moments that are directed in the second person, it's really easy to find yourself deep within Ludwik's life in mind.

This story is really special and I really hope the author writes another.

It was wonderful.
At first I was a bit worried about how graphic it was but I realize how much that solidifies the feelings between the characters throughout the book. Very honest and I related so much to the words and feelings expressed throughout the book.
I told my partner "where was this book when I was growing up?", even though I have been out for many years, I really think this sort of literature would have made me feel more comfortable with myself sooner (as is expressed in the interview at the end!)