ahhh let's talk about disappointment.. to be fair, i should've given up with the book sooner because even though it was kinda interesting at first, there was just not enough reasons to continue reading this and the only thing it did was just be as disappointing as i feared it might be.
long story short, neither the protagonist nor the plot make any sense.

reminder to myself: it's okay to give up reading some books, 馬鹿